I have been trying to get myself motivated to train – and through this effort discovered something about my attitude. Simply put – it ain’t good.
Since my diagnosis about a year ago, and especially following my surgery, I have had a “can’t-do” mentality. I can’t go for a hike, I can’t kick the ball around with my kids, I can’t ride at the bmx track, I can’t play softball, I can’t ride up that hill out of the saddle, I can’t walk to the store, etc.
My hips have hurt me on and off since I was a teenager, but I never believed I couldn’t do something. I just worked around it and went on as best I could. I didn’t worry; I didn’t question too much (or at all really); I just thought about being outdoors and about having fun. I got on my bike and felt like this:
Now I find that I worry and ‘what-if’ and question and doubt. I don’t want to do this anymore. I want my ‘can-do’ attitude back.
“A person starts to live when he can live outside himself.” – Albert Einstein